“Do you have love for me or the devils inside…or will I always just be the last one in line?” #me #selfportrait #goth #gothic #makeup #olderphoto #2011 #browneyes
I’ll be heading off to sleep now.
To lie awake in bed thinking about everything.
To dream of the one thing I can’t have and don’t deserve to have.
And to wake up sad knowing what can never happen.
As much as I wish I had made a different choice those few years ago, I can’t change a thing no matter how hard I wish.
Knowing now what I didn’t know then…I regret not making a decision that might have been good for me.
There are many days and nights that this completely conquers without fail. It’s so hard to forget about the one thing that could have made me happy back then.
I can’t help it. As much as it affects me emotionally, I truly don’t have the will power to do so.
And frankly, I’m okay with that last part.
Just let me be. This will be with me the rest of my life, whether I like it or not.
Good night, my dear followers. To the ones who have respected my opinions and requests…and those who have been following me since late 2010.
So it’s World Goth Day. I am in Pennsylvania where there are no actual goths or goth happenings. So I will be home, watching movies and eating my feelings. Goodnight.
Yes, this is me. And that is actually how my makeup looked that day. I had fun doing it.
Let chaos entwine… #me #selfportrait #olderphoto #2010 #goth #gothic #makeup
#me #selfportrait #olderphoto #2009 #goth #gothic #makeup #weightgoal
#me #selfportrait #olderphoto #2011 #makeup #goth #gothic #redhair #edited
“The blind ones will always suffer in secrecy.” #me #selfportrait #olderphoto #2008 #makeup #goth #gothic
Alright, I need sleep. #Goodnight #me #selfportrait #olderphoto #2008 #goth #gothic #makeup
“Beg my broken heart to beat…” #me #selfportrait #goth #gothic #recent #2013 #makeup
“Should it hurt to love you? Should I feel like I do…?” #me #selfportrait #recent #2013 #goth #gothic #makeup #cross
